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freewriting 1982

Ah me, oh my. [Older guy]. John. Nick. And gitface isn't here today, how nice.

    Why are the clocks wrong? I suppose I am a flirt, but I hope I'm not a tease. I don't see how I could be. I either don't love any of them (well, really either of them) or I love them all. Maybe Richard was right. [Older guy] can seem so cold, but I guess it's the same with John. I miss [former long-distance boyfriend from SoCal]'s furry face when I kiss, damn those shavers.

Posted on November 22, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

[more about boys] 1982

Things are strange this week. I'm going out Sunday with [older guy] (oh joy oh rapture unforeseen) Nick wants to know what kind of candy I like. John wrote a note on my test. Greg is sick, but he would have gone. What fun! Nathan's a git, but nothing's perfect. Not much to do this weekend; No anatomy, no french, some English (actually a lot) probably no gov't, and pies for probs.

    I like to go to the exploratorium. (My computer training shows through, I have a hard time writing 'go to' without writing 'goto')

    Oh blessed friday. What nonsense.

Logic by T-shirts

"If you ain't a cowboy, you ain't shit" therefore cowboys are shit. Somehow I don't think thats what the person had in mind.

Them Guys

Too many pretties
to chose my favorite,
and what if they're ugly inside?


He may be a good boy
but he tries to get revenge
on me for being loved.
Oh hateful creature,
I will not accept
I will not feel guilty.
What you fail to understand
you cannot punish me for.
Don't even try, I won't listen
I don't want to hear
you will deny it all
because you still don't understand.

Posted on November 19, 1982 at 12:00 PM in relationships, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

presentations on Macbeth 1982

[I'll be on] Mon 13th

1 be ready by day assigned

2 Don't be absent your day

3 be prepared

4 notes are o.k. (extra-credit for lines memorized)

5 between 7 and 17 minutes

6 He [teacher Mr. Johnson] won't be very helpful

7 read up to my point in play

8 grades will not be given on day of report

Aspects of report

1 brief intro or summary of events + characters

2 read or recite passage

3 Describe how it contributes to the overall play {maybe first?}

4 Explain difficult words or metaphors and how they contribute to your passage

5 Themes or symbols that recur throughout play present in your passage.

6 stand and answer questions

Posted on November 18, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

Macbeth 1982

Think about what they're thinking

Act 5 Scene 5 beginning of scene    I say a moving grove [My recollection is that when it was announced by Mr. Johnson that we would each read & discuss a scene, my arm hit the air as fast as could be. I'd recently watched an acting program with Ian McKellen in which that very scene was performed and I LOVED (and still love) it.]

Act 5 Scene 5

Macbeth: Hang out our banners on the outward walls

The cry is still "they come!" our castle's strength

will laugh a siege to score; here let them lie {sleep theme}

Till famine and the ague eat them up.

Were they not forced with those that should be ours {reinforced with those who have deserted}

We might have met them dareful, beard to beard,

And beat them backward home. {a cry of women within

What is that noise?

Seyton: It is the cry of women, my good lord.

Macbeth: I have almost forgot the taste of fears.

The time has been, my senses would have cooled

To hear a night-shriek; and my fell of hair {the hair on my scalp}

Would at dismal treatise {gloomy story} rouse and stir

As life were in 't. I have supped full with horrors;

Direness, familiar to my slaughterous thoughts,

Cannot once start me. {re-enter Seyton

Wherefore was that cry?

Seyton: The queen, my lord, is dead.

Macbeth: She should have died hereafter; {book says: she was bound to die sometime} {time theme}

There would have been a time {theme} for such a word

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow {time theme}

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day {theme}

To the last syllable of recorded time {theme}

And all our yesterdays {theme} have lighted {theme} fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! {theme}

Life's but a walking shadow, {light dark theme} a poor player

That struts and frets his hour {theme} upon the stage

And then is heard no more. It is a tale

told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,

signifying nothing. {enter messenger

Though comest to use thy tongue; thy story quickly.

Messenger: Gracious my lord,

I should report that which I say I saw,

But I know not how to do it.

Macbeth: Well, say, sir.

Messenger: As I did stand my watch upon the hill,

I looked toward Birnam, and anon, methought,

The wood began to move.

Macbeth: Liar and slave!

Messenger: Let me endure your wrath, if 't be not so.

Within this three mile may you see it coming;

I say, a moving grove.

Act IV Scene 1 3rd app. "Macbeth shall never vanquished be until, Great Birnam wood to high Dunsinane Hill, shall come against him."


(Blood), Time, sleep, light/dark, (Night), fire

Posted on November 17, 1982 at 12:01 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

freewriting 1982

Blah Blah blah, bullshit, hedge, fill, play for time, lie, write garbage.

Posted on November 17, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

[angst again] 1982

I'm depressed today. I want to go out with somebody; but I'm worried. If I ask them will they shy off. I don't know what to do.

Greg: It might change a good friendship into something bad.

John: Might get scared off.

Nick: "    +

[older guy]: Might want one thing only.

[handwriting gets VERY bad here on:]
My glasses cost too much money and they don't even fit. I've probably ruined them already!

Posted on November 16, 1982 at 12:00 PM in relationships, school, worry vs. clarity | Permalink | Comments (0)

Freewriting 1982

    One nice thing about a school as big as this is that it is possible to avoid people. N. is just repulsive to me now. I don't want to have any contact with him at all. Maybe that seems really cold, but he just dumps on me too much. I want to kick him.

    John is still attractive. I enjoy his company, but I have a hard time with his [tobacco] chewing, etc. (especially the etc.) Greg is fun to flirt with, but I think things will work out better if we just keep it at flirting. N. is ugly. I don't even want to look at him. [older guy (by a few years) met through Ren Faire crowd]. Why would Roderic tell me to watch out for guys like him? Mayhaps I shall ask [older guy]. I think I'll try to tame [older guy]. He pushes but he does check. I will have to be very careful. Maybe I'll even talk to Roderic about it. [Older guy] is very pretty. Why does it bother me that John parties and not that [older guy] does? Is [older guy] any more trustworthy?

Posted on November 15, 1982 at 12:00 PM in relationships, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

Freewriting for 11/9 done 11/13 1982

I would like to teach a course on role-playing games. I have taught this course twice already and I have always found it enjoyable despite it being a lot of work. I have dealt with Tunnels and Trolls, Dungeons and Dragons, and Bunnies and Burrows. I would like to do more research into these 3 and perhaps add one or two more. I could spend the first week talking about my experiences with role-playing and working with the students to decide what we want to do with this class. For the next 5 or 6 weeks we could spend one week on each game, discussing various aspects of it in relation to the player, the dungeonmaster and the purchaser. The last 2 or 3 weeks the students would give their presentations. I would require each student to give an oral presentation and a demonstration of a role-playing game. More credit would be given if they presented a game not covered by me in the course. The objective of the class would be to increase players' knowledge of gaming and role-playing and to help them find the right game (or games) for them. I would enjoy having teachers as members of the class. I think they would find it to be a harder and more serious class than they expected.

Posted on November 13, 1982 at 12:00 PM in games, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

Freewriting II 1982

I am on bart, so it's 'character sketch by description' time.

a. Woman; long blondy-brown hair, quite straight; she has frown lines on her forehead and a tight angry face; she is looking out the window when she isn't looking shiftily around the car.

b. Boy; straight blond hair; blue, heavy coat with hood; he has rollerskates with him; he looking out the window; alert, reasonably intelligent looking.

c. 'a' left. 'c' took her seat in the corner. She (woman) is staring at the back of 'b''s head. This can get boring, no wonder Harriet the Spy didn't write volumes.

Posted on November 13, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

English class 1982

Freewriting subject: "Write about some interesting work you are doing in another class. (ideas: art, history, or science projects, shop...) If you can't think of anything interesting, then write about a project that you wish you were working on. Do you think your teacher would considers the idea? Write a course proposal (including objectives) for the project."



* Free will v.s. determinism - d: "a doctrine that acts of the will, natural events, and such, are determined by preceding causes or Fate" F.w. "the power to choose"

* Hedonism v.s. acceticism - h "the doctrine that pleasure is the chief good in life." a: "practicing self-denial (for religious reasons, esp.) or spiritual discipline."

*Romanticism v.s. stoicism - R. "emphasis on the imagination and emotions, the self, and 'nature' -- esp. the literary movement in 19th century England" s. "denying passion, showing indifference to pain, esp. after Zeno (308 B.C. Athens)"

Posted on November 11, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

Notes Shakespeare 1982

Born 1564, Died 1616, Dad John - a glover, Married when 18, Anne Hathaway 26, 1st child 1583, twins 1585, between 1582-1600 no record of him, began to emerge as a playwright end of 1600's made money, died rich, invested in theatres, Part owner of Globe theatre, retired 1610, performance before Liz [Elizabeth I], used Hollinshed, Banquo + King James,

Tragedy unmarked by "pleasurable" language; comedy often in the vernacular.

37 plays    154 sonnets    4 long poems
acredited to Shakespeare

Posted on November 5, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

freewriting 1982

    Time is flying by, how can it be Friday already. Test tomorrow, S.A.T. Horrors. After the test I will work at the Synergy sale. I guess I'll call Barbara tomorrow night. Eyedoctor monday morning, Library exam in the afternoon. Barbara's party the 13th, go to harvest fest. Thanksgiving. Christmas. Dentist January 21st. I think I will stay here with Wendy. No money though, hmmm, better go home for dinner. I'll stay here, study through 6th period, work with Wendy 'til 4:30 or 5, go home, come back around 5:30 or 6 work for 2 more hours go to the game, walk home, go to sleep, get up at 7, go to acalanes, take S.A.T., go to synergy, work, go home, slow down.

Posted on November 5, 1982 at 12:00 PM in mundania, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

notes 1982

Allusion - a reference to something in history or previous literature.

Satire - a literary attempt to discredit vice or folly.

Sarcasm - a sharp, cutting utterance (perhaps ironical) but designed to give pain.

Irony - that which means the contrary of what is expressed; a contradiction of expectations.

Tragedy/Comedy ... tragedy in a dramatic sense is that which is generally sad and typically ends in death. Still there is often some gain in awareness near the end. The chief characters are noble, yet not perfect. It is the one flaw in the protagonist's character or judgement that leads to his fall.

    Comedy stresses human folly + weakness. The comedy is a social play, whereas tragedy tends to isolate the "Hero". Thus tragedies are often named after the protaganist (Hamlet, Macbeth) The comedy is less plausible; it is marked by greater use of disguises + coincidence. It usually ends in marriage.

Posted on November 4, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

notes 1982

Always stick with protaganist.

Posted on November 3, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

freewriting: Good friends 1982

I have a lot of friends who I believe are good people. I don't know a lot of people really well, but I do have a wide range of friends. I lost a friend. He and I went to school together from about kindergarten on and for most of that time we lived about a block apart. But something changed recently, he is cold and distant. I am sorry to have lost his companionship.

    I like people who speak their mind, who stand up for themselves on being different. People who do what they really feel like doing yet can also consider other peoples' needs. My friends can be gentle and caring and considerate without compromising their needs. I like independent people, people who will not be offended if I am busy or just don't feel like talking, people who will know that if something is wrong I will tell them and we will work it out. I like people who have qualities I like about myself, but complete identicalness doesn't sound very nice. I like to learn and I can learn from people with some things in common and some differences. The quality in common helps me to understand the differences.

Posted on November 2, 1982 at 12:00 PM in relationships, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

[mooning over boys] 1982

He is awfully goodlooking. I hope I didn't screw everything up with that flower. I don't think I did. He told me this morning how he did on a test he took. Maybe he's actually shy!? How strange that is. I am so disgusted with Nathan D. He doesn't relax, he doesn't even eat chocolate chip cookie dough! He guilt-slings and I just can't handle much of his company at one time. He doesn't play, he's awkward and that creates tension in me. I guess I like the naughty boys better. You are too nice for me, Nathan.


Page #'s for Macbeth 1-7, 16, 94-102

Posted on November 1, 1982 at 12:00 PM in relationships, school | Permalink | Comments (0)

freewriting 1982

I haven't been doing the topics; I have instead used this time to work out my heavy feelings. I need a chance to blow off steam in order to concentrate on the rest of my classes.

Posted on November 1, 1982 at 12:00 PM in school | Permalink | Comments (0)

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